nana banana update

the timeline keeps getting shorter & shorter. Today her doctor says he doesnt like to make predictions, but in his opinion she might have a month left. She seemed better today. Not as heavily medicated. When we went in, she knew exactly who we were. I took the girls with me today, in hopes they might make her want to fight to get better. I also took her some gorgeous pictures of our cottage as motivation. She loved it. She also mentioned that she won't ever get to see it again. I tried to brush it off, & told her that she most certainly will see it again. God I hope she pulls through this. my nan is everything to us. she has 8 kids, 19 grandchildren & 4 great grandchildren. She is a major presence in each persons life. She has raised an amazing family that respects & loves each other. We are an extremely tight knit family, and that is due to her & my poppas guidance. We all grew up together. They don't make families like this anymore. We will still remain close, but it's just not the same. I am trying to blog about this in hopes that it will be theraputic, but no words can describe the pain i feel. my whole body aches.