horrible news

No one had told my Nan about the cancer. It was unanimously decided that we would wait until after she was done her treatment for the pnemonia & infection. She is done those treatments. She asked my mom this morning for the honest truth about what is wrong. My mom told her. She calmly asked her options. My mom explained. She has chosen to take herself off dialysis on Monday. After that she will live 4-10 days, if she does not have a heart attack first. She will go through withdrawl on the first two days, that will be very hard on her body. After that they think she will just slip into a coma & die. I am going to see her, for what could potentially be the last time, tomorrow. I really want to see her on my own. I have this whole thing played out in my head. Things I want to ask her, things I want to say, time I want to spend just me & her. I have a very large family & know the chances of getting any time alone with her are slim to none, but I am hoping. I am worried that if I don't get that time with her, that I am not going to get the closure I feel I need. I am very worried for my mother. I am very worried that I am not going to be strong enough.