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I miss my Nan.

I will do a proper memorial when I feel strong enough.

For now I just miss her. I miss that she won't be here for thanksgiving. It sucks that she is not here to celebrate my promotion at work. I know that she would have been proud. My daughter just started junior kindegarten. It sucks that she is not there when she gets home from school everyday. She would have loved to see all her school work & loved to hear the stories of the playground. It sucks that she is not here to see my youngest learn to talk and watch her dance her heart out anytime there is music on. It sucks that she is no longer there to be a friend to my mom. She was the biggest inspiration in so many peoples lives.

It sucks that she's gone. It sucks that my first post after her death isn't the lovely memorial I wanted to write. I am not able to write anything beautiful yet. I'm stuck in sucksville. It sucks big time.